Letters to Sadie
Alone and Broken
Dearest Sadie, God took your daddy from me 30 days ago. My heart had finally healed after losing you and I actually learned to love my next girl, Gracie. I was feeling content and peaceful. I was happy. Then two words shattered my world: “he’s gone”. Baby, you know he was best friend, the love …
Two Years Later
Hi my sweet baby girl. It’s been two years since you left us. Sometimes I can hardly believe it’s been that long; other times it seems like forever since we’ve been together. Your daddy and I had a talk about you this morning. I’m sad, missing my girl, and so is he. But he keeps …
Forever Love
Time passes, but my love for you remains unchanged. Physical absence has no power over the force of eternal love. So much has changed here since you’ve been gone. Do you remember the black cat that came into the yard? I remember very clearly kneeling on the patio with my arm around you, watching the …
A Winter Passing
As the cold February wind blew, I somehow knew that you would not be with me when the breeze would once again turn warm with the coming of spring. I stared at the snow-filled yard, sensing you would not see it melt. You didn’t. You left this world on a sullen and dreary day, the …
On my birthday
My Sadie, here I am facing the first birthday without you since I was 24. Oh how I wish you were here. All I have now is precious memories of the life we shared and a deep ache in my heart for you that won’t seem to go away. Remember how you used to follow …
On your birthday
Happy 18th birthday my baby girl. Oh how I had hoped you would make it to this day. You got so close though. I’m so proud of you. I was sad when I woke up today, thinking too much of your final days. But your birthday shouldn’t be a sad day even though I wish …
How many times
How many times did I pick you up and lay you on top of me, breathing deeply of your scent, feeling your good weight on me. How many times did I lay down next to you while you slept, putting my head next to yours, gently stroking your soft fur. How many times did I …
Unfinished Ode to Sadie
I wrote the following piece for my personal blog on Jan 11 2010. At that time, Sadie was starting to slow down a bit. Still, I had no idea her end would come so soon after this. Sigh. Sadie was born March 25 1992. At least that’s the date on the papers the ASPCA gave …
Fresh grief
The first few days were the worst. Grief in it’s rawest stage. I felt incredibly lost. My constant companion of almost 18 years was no longer with me. How can anyone understand the depth of that loss unless they have experienced it themselves? Nothing seemed to have any meaning. I moved in a fog, getting …