Dearest Sadie,
God took your daddy from me 30 days ago. My heart had finally healed after losing you and I actually learned to love my next girl, Gracie. I was feeling content and peaceful. I was happy.
Then two words shattered my world: “he’s gone”.
Baby, you know he was best friend, the love of my life, my special person. Now he’s gone and it’s worse than losing you. I never thought I could hurt more than I hurt after you died. Now I know. This is the worst devastation of my life.
Were you there to greet him? Did you jump on him, lick his face, joyfully reunited?
I hope so.
And I can only hope that my own end comes soon, so that we all can be reunited on the other side. Then our family will be whole again.
Until then, I’m left here alone, feeling betrayed by God, my spirit broken, my family destroyed.
Please say a prayer for me, my baby girl. I’m lost.
I love you always,
-Mommy.